Tree …Bedroom!

I'm totally fine with a normal house and all. This is just going to be an attachment on top of it. My private relaxing room. Wooo!!! :D … I'm such a daydreamer.

www.thecoolhunter.com go ahead and procrastinate.

Friends…

Even the most beautiful of gems must first be carved out from the dusty, dirty earth.

The blog piece I started writing in place of this one could not be going further in the opposite direction. It was full of rage. Full of anger. I was pouring out my feelings because writing is usually the only why I know how to express them and get them to leave me alone and let me feel better. Be better. But what I was doing instead was holding on to the emotions; on the rage I felt and wouldn't let it go. I need to learn to let them go.

Fortunately, I had a friend send me this:

Sometimes we… I focus too much on the bad and tend to forget those things that are good or at least just enough. Those things I actually am trying to get on my feet to chase.

…Even then, "And if your right hand causes you to sin, cut it off and throw it away."

Should you be able to loosely replace "right hand" with "'friend'" do not hesitate to cut it off and throw it away. I have hesitated and keep hesitating… lol. Soon enough I'll stop being a wuss and will pick up that axe.

It about time I crawled into bed.

xoxo.

One man's junk… is still junk.

Apple's Touch iPod. Amongst the top gadgets. Upload over a 1000 songs and have them literally at your fingertips with the large touch screen, easy to use GUI and wi-fi capabilities. Wow! Browse the net on the 2…3…? inch screen. Watch YouTube videos on the go! OMDz!! What more could u want from a portable music device?
Ok Apple. Somehow your backup doesn't actually backup music so reformatting even after a backup is a no no because all I managed to "backup" were my apps. mtchew. And then even before and something maybe some OS bug has made my wi-fi menopausal.

Now you tell me, what good is my touch to me now.
Here are a few of my ideas:
1. Miniature electronic picture frame. Family and friends, at your fingertips too!
2. Fancy paper weight. Never have your homework fly all over the place messing up your homework.
3. High tech GameBoy (or low tech if you lost all your games apps and can't download more because there is no wi-fi)
4. Emergency notebook in class.
5. Clock (note: just a clock there's no alarm clock business here)

Apple, you might wanna consider including these in the device capabilities so people have activity options as they wait to hear back from some ...genius. They said it, not me.

Do forgive me. I'm a liddle upset.
Love to all. Xx.

The Question Is…

The question is, will I ever leave You,
The answer is, no, no, no, no, no, no,
No, no, no, no, no, no,
No, no, no.

The question is, will I ever leave You,
The answer is, no, no, no, no, no, no,
No, no, no, no, no, no,
No, no, no.

Oh, I love the Lord for He's so dear to me,
Oh He died that I might be free;
I was asked this question is and the answer is still, no.

[Verse 2:]
Now the question is, will I do His will,
And it's, yes, yes, yes, yes,
Yes, yes, yes, yes,
Yes, yes, yes, yes.

I was at home late one night,
The Lord asked me would I do His will,
I told Him, yes, yes, yes, yes,
Yes, yes, yes, yes,
Yes, yes, yes, yes

I'm presenting my body, a living sacrifice,
All I'm gonna do is the will of Christ
I was asked this question and the answer is, yes.

[Verse 3:]
The question is, when will Jesus return
I want you to know, soon, soon,
Soon, soon, soon, soon.

Look at the crisis in Iran,
Russia's already invaded Afghanistan,
Soon, soon, soon, soon, soon, soon.

Oh but I can hardly wait for Jesus to return,
For His returning my heart of yearn,
I was asked this question, and the answer is, real soon.

[Verse 4:]
Now the questions are
Will I ever leave You, will I do Your will, and when will Jesus return
No, and yes, and soon, soon, soon, soon.
Will I ever leave You, will I do Your will, when will Jesus return;
And the answer, no, and yes, and soon, soon, soon, soon.

Oh, if you've questioned when Christ is coming,
The answer is soon.

Happy Easter everyone!! :D

…

Head rush from a touch my emotions erupt, realise that I'm stuck, trapped inside of his seduction. Losing my mind each and every time he's around…

Dear baby…

Hello my beautiful baby,

How are you doing? I'm not sure what I want to say but… here goes.
This is your mummy, well the 22 and 3 day old version of me and as much as I know I will love you, I hope I don't get to meet you at least for the next 2 (…maybe 3) years. I'm not very ready for you just yet considering I currently haven't even met your daddy yet. Well I may have met him but have no idea/clue/desire for him to be your daddy just yet, who ever this guy is. Haha! It would actually be interesting to find out who it is if I already do know your daddy now. LOL.

Why am I writing to you? Honestly? Right now, I'm avoiding my algorithms homework due tomorrow morning at 1o:50am and its 9:23pm right now. But also I've got you on my mind. See, a good friend of mine goes on and on about how she can't wait for a baby and even says, "I want a baby now!" Once or twice I have felt the same way but I'm not sure I ever have with as much passion as she shows. She literally lights up when she sees a baby and by baby I mean anyone under 7 (?) years old. So it's because of her that you are on my mind as she coos at yet another baby. …Will I ever really feel that way?

I'm wondering whether I'd be a good mother to you. Will I have picked the right father for you? And by that I'm not necessarily talking about your biological father (though I hope he is the one in question), but the one I choose to act in that capacity. One will love you as much as I do. One who will love and protect us. One who will make us a family. Will I protect you with all I have? Will I introduce you to your creator and to His word and show you the way He wants you to live? Will I teach you respect and still be the first person you come to when you need to talk? (And baby, if you are a boy yes, I'm talking to you too.)

Maybe these are just the fantasies of a 22-year-old woman and tears fill my eyes as I write this though I cannot explain why. There are so many lessons I believe I'm yet to learn before I can teach them to you. So many attitudes I'm yet to develop and many more I'm yet to get rid of. So much anger I need to let go off. I have a long way to go in my walk with God. …There is a lot more growing up I have to do before I can get to meet you. And I do no think even now I could bear to give you away simply because I was not ready to receive you… You, the gift that God may choose to give to me personally? Lord forbid.

But when God finally decides it's the right time that we meet, my only prayer is that I be the best mother I can possibly be and give you all the love, support and care you need. (This is all mushy stuff, but baby I can tell you now though I'm not sparing that rod if you need it.)

Should difficult homework be what inspires these letter to you my love, I do believe this is simply the first of many to come. And like the responsible and sensible person I hope to be when you finally read I should get back to this homework…
Sigh… if I'm working in the computer science industry as you read this come give me a big hug. (Well, either way I want a hug after this.)

Already, you have my love, always.

Better Today: Ne-Yo

Whoa oh, whoa oh.
Whoa oh, whoa oh.
Whoa oh, oh.

You see it all in my smile.
You hear it all in my laugh.
The way I walk, you hear me talk.
And know I'm no longer sad.
I got no reason to smile more now than I've ever had.
I open up my eyes and realize that nothing's quite that bad.

I've got a different approach to dealing with emotion.
Keeping control of my boat, while drifting on this ocean.
Keeping my head to the sky, keeping tears out of my eyes.
Unless happiness be the reason that I decide to cry.
And life's too short to dwell on all that's wrong.
Stand up now, stand up now and I promise not before long.

You'll be feeling better today.
Much better today, much better today.
So much better.
You're feeling better today.
Much better today, much better today.
Much better today.
You're feeling better today.
Much better today, much better today.
So much better.
You're feeling better today.
Much better today, much better today.
You're feeling so much better.

I know about down and out.
I know about when it gets tough.
Losing my fight, can't see the light.
And you just wanna give up.
I know about being depressed.
By needing someone to love.
I also know 'bout standing up and saying enough is enough.

Oh, I've got a different approach to dealing with emotion.
Keeping control of my boat, while drifting on this ocean.
Keeping my head to the sky, keeping tears out of my eyes.
Unless happiness be the reason I decide to cry.
And life's too short to dwell on all that's wrong.
Stand up now, stand up now and I promise not before long.

You'll be feeling better today.
Much better today, much better today.
So much better.
You're feeling better today.
Much better today, much better today.
Much better today.
You're feeling better today.
Much better today, much better today.
So much better.
You're feeling better today.
Much better today, much better today.
You're feeling so much better.

(Ohh whoa. Oh whoa, whoa)
(Oooh)

I feel like if I try, I could fly away right now.
All because I've finally found my smile.

(x2)
And you'll be feeling better today.
Much better today, much better today.
So much better.
You're feeling better today.
Much better today, much better today.
Much better today.
You're feeling better today.
Much better today, much better today.
So much better.
You're feeling better today.
Much better today, much better today.

You're feeling so much better.

Picking up the pieces, shutting it down. My anthem. I'll be feeling so much better today… and for a while to come. Much love for Ne-Yo.

I thought I'd share.

Bend reality

Is there something outside of you that's troubling you? The distress you're feeling is not from the thing itself.
The distress you experience is from what you think of it and the way you feel about it. You can change that in an instant.
You can change what you fear into what you eagerly anticipate. You can change a burdensome problem into a magnificent opportunity.
The vast majority of all that happens in this enormous universe is out of your control. And yet with every bit of it, you can control what it means to you.
Do you fully realize how much power that gives you? Do you understand the unlimited nature of what you can do with whatever you have?
Just by the way you choose to accept and to make use of reality, you can bend that reality to empower your own unique purpose. See what is, accept what is, and use it to achieve your finest dreams.
-- Ralph Marston

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