25 Pieces of Me!

SO! here I am, about to share some random things about myself.
The idea came both from facebook (where else?) and a fellow blogger over at Abrabɔ mu Nsɛm, check it out! Thanx Maa! :)

1. I just found out “Discombobulated” is actually a word. I first heard it from B. Scott so… I thought it wasn’t. lol. (Look him up on YouTube. He is something else)
2. Family: Friends And Me!!! I Love Y’all (Lol, cheesy I know). I am blessed that I have the family I do and Lord knows I don’t thank Him as often as I should for them.
3. I have a least 3 very good friends whom I have never met before. :/ :D
4. OOOHHH it gives me the chills when I can hear someone smack their lips when they are eating or gulp when drinking! There is a reason why you are supposed to close your mouth when you eat!!! Grr!!
5. I think too much which tends to lead into worrying too much. I know, I know, I shouldn’t. I can’t help it. You would think I had nothing else to do.
6. I have searched for God so many times and always get discouraged by the same things that encouraged me in the first place.
7. Ok Ok I’d admit it. I’m a mushmellow. *Resigned sigh* I love all those comedy romance movies; I love when the guy gets the girl or vice versa. I don’t think I can watch 500 days of summer and be happy. :/
8. Crying is easy; I’m just trying really hard so that you wouldn’t think so.
9. I LOVE stuffed dogs, I have 9: Benjie, Paws, Rox, Pebbles (obviously Pebbles is Rox’s kid) Lucky, Monty, Bruno, Mr. Brown, and Pipo and then there are the other animals. Lol, I know, I know.
10. Benjie has a great huge butt for a stuffed dog! :D lol
11. Mum was going to get me a life-sized Scooby Doo but someone got to it first. (Lol, yes, both she and my Granma support my madness) We all still mourn our collective loss.
12. Ever so often, I just want to have a lazy day in bed and just cuddle. …It is yet to happen.
13. My friends are important to me, but the sad thing is that they probably do not know this and if they do, they do not know just how important they are.
14. Sometimes I’m afraid to let people in because I fear they would not like what they find.
15. Music is a great part of my life. I always listening to it, singing it, dancing to it, attempting to make my own. It makes me smile from the inside out.
16. I love water…. I really should not continue cus I cant explain it further.
17. I’m very sure I can recite and sing along with a good 90% of the Lion King and at least sing along with most of the other animated Disney movies I have watched repeatedly. I LOVE DISNEY.
18. People tend to think my favourite colour is black, but its not really, I just happen to have a lot of black things, it just goes well with anything including itself. It’s a great colour, black is.
19. I like weird creatures that don’t exist, like dragons, phoenixes and griffins, especially griffins.
20. A lack of respect and further blatant disregard for my person, space and activities that I am involved in drive me to heightened agitation, irritation and, unfortunately for those who have to listen, prolonged less-than-calm rantings in order to calm down. ☺ I’m sorry.
21. “Ne-yo is not a phrase you go through, he is a way of life” Strong words, but I can understand. Jeremih too is getting there but that I've only really heard "Birthday Sex" and even then what I took away was not what he meant me to, I'm sure. lol
22. I like to believe that common sense is exactly that. COMMON. But too often I find myself in the mist of people who must really be special because they have been kept away from all things common: Sense, courtesy, manners, the list really could go on. And it really is shocking, irritating and frustrating. But I guess I really just have myself to blame for being so naïve and trusting and thinking the definition of common by the oxford dictionary is accurate. Mtchew.
23. Let's not talk about the cold shoulder I can give you when you are ticking me off. You’d be wearing bikinis in the Minnesotan winter compared. But after some space, I get over it.
24. I try not to make assumptions. But do you know in trying not to make assumptions, you end up making other assumptions. But if you resort to simply asking about something to avoid assumptions, what kinda question would you ask in order to not make it seem as though you have made one assumption or the other??? …Now I'm confused. I told you I think too much.
25. Turbulence. I feel better about a flight when there is turbulence. I don’t feel too much like I’m wasting 6/8/11 hours of my life sitting by some usually uninteresting personality.

What are some of your pet peeves?

I Found Myself - Ciara

So long. Farewell.
Hello, to the new me, the better me, that's right.

My Life...
21, and I've realized, everything you want's not meant to be.
21 then you qualify, then stand up to responsibilities.
So I tried to prioritize by deciding what I know is best for me.
And then there's always, love that tries to trip you up.
You try to catch yourself before you hit the ground. …But nothings promised.
Friends are there to cheer you up, to give you strength and build you up when you are down.

So I set sail in motion. I say: So long, farewell,
My life's moving forward. My ship has sailed,
And I'm so glad it's over. My heart mends well,
After all that I've been through, I found myself.

[*Sigh*]

22, I hope that I'm with someone who truly cares for me.
If I'm not, I'll be alright, I'll accept the time I know God has for me.
One day I'll be the perfect wife. If that's my destiny (yeaah)
And I won't be afraid to try, though there's always:
Love that tries to trip you up
But then someone who sweep you off the ground. …But nothings promised.
I'm not gonna give it up, just because the last one let me down.

So I set sail in motion. I say: So long, farewell,
My life's moving forward. My ship has sailed,
And I'm so glad it's over. My heart mends well,
After all that I've been through, I found myself.


I'm looking out for me, taking care of my needs.
Life isn't guaranteed, it's time to start living.
It won't always be the same, can't be afraid of change.
You wanna have your way,
demand till you're satisfied, you lower your self-esteem,
You gotta live your dream. It's all about confidence,
So let them know that you can stand up.
You can never try,
Learn to express you mind. Sometimes you gotta fight,
It's your life so don't you give up.

So I set sail in motion. I say: So long, farewell,
My life's moving forward. That ship has sailed,
And I'm so glad it's over. My heart mends well,
After all that I've been through, I found myself. x3

-Ciara.

I really could not have said it better. She gave me all the perfect words to express this moment, my transition. I guess you can say, I'm finally growing up. …And I mean it this time. I am my own person and do not need anyone to define me.

I'm taking care of my needs.
My life's moving forward,
Welcome to the new me.
I FOUND MYSELF.

Today, I will be King

On the 4th of February 2009, I, we, everyone, lost a very important person: King. …And it's now that I realize I don't know his last name.

Maya Angelou said "I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel." And as I sit here with the tears running down my face, I realize just how true that is. I do remember some of the things he said and some that he did but more clearly do I remember the way his face would light up when he saw me and I'd feel special, like I mattered. As though I was not just 1 in the 2000 Mac students that passed by him but 1 in 1. King took the time out of his day to learn my name and further to learn things about me like my country and was sometimes more excited about the idea of Ghana than I was. He'd take time out of his day to say hi and make me smile, yelling "Roooddaaayy" when he saw me across the cafeteria or "Ghana in the house" when my roommate and I walked in. King had his own problems, big ones too, obviously, since he is safely in heaven but it was still us he cared about and not himself.

There is nothing particularly special about today, June 19th, other than the fact that earlier on I was riding the bus, hauling a wide bar sound system around, when I met King again. Well, someone like him. It was the bus driver. Coincidentally, he was also a big, bald, African-American man with a jolly disposition despite having what some would think is a crappy job. But he welcomed (not just greeted but welcomed) his passengers onto the bus, some of whom by name even and others with a big "Hello, come on in."
Sitting right next to him, he looked at me a went "Boy, you looked so bored" and smiled and right away my day brightened. In the 6 minutes I was on the bus we talked about my job and school, and he told me a mini love story about his son and ended with "go to law school." :) …I didn't catch his name.

There are way too few King's in the world and therefore way too little love. I don't mean the high in the sky on cloud nine kinda love but the simple love, the love that "takes a determination to show thoughtful action when there seems to be no reward." (I'm not sure who said that).
I said to myself at his memorial that I would be King, I have not been altogether successful with this yet, but again I make this vow and will literally write it on the wall as a reminder everyday, saying "Today I will be King."

Rest in Perfect Peace my friend. I'll see you soon.
xoxoxo

Love is not a Fight - Warren Barfield.

Love is not a place
To come and go as we please
It's a house we enter in
Then commit to never leave

So lock the door behind you
Throw away the key
We'll work it out together
Let it bring us to our knees

Chorus:
Love is a shelter in a raging storm
Love is peace in the middle of a war
And if we try to leave, may God send angels to guard the door
No, love is not a fight but it's something worth fighting for

To some, love is a word
That they can fall into
But when they're falling out
Keeping that word is hard to do

Chorus:
Love is a shelter in a raging storm
Love is peace in the middle of a war
And if we try to leave, may God send angels to guard the door
No, love is not a fight but it's something worth fighting for

Love will come to save us
If we'll only call
He will ask nothing from us
But demand we give our all

Chorus:
Love is a shelter in a raging storm
Love is peace in the middle of a war
And if we try to leave, may God send angels to guard the door
No, love is not a fight but it's something worth fighting for

I will fight for you
Would you fight for me?
It's worth fighting for

Stop. Let go. Breathe. Pick a Turn.

Everyone gets to that point somewhere when they hit wall and simply can't seem to get around it. No matter how hard we try or which angle we tackle it from, that wall simply would not give in. More often than not there is going to be frustration, anger, tears, arguments, and more.
It is here that we need to realize that our tears are not going to wear down the wall's cement. We need to look up at that wall and see that rather than trying to go through it, we would have to get around it. See it as that fork in the road where you have to pick the left or right. Walking away from the wall doesn't imply failure but rather a change in direction, in thinking and finally in actions that could potentially lead you where you want to go or need to be.
When you feel you are fighting with a brick wall, take a break.
Stop and think about what it is you want and the things that you are doing that are not working. Let those things go and reflect. Breathe. And now look around and see the choices in turnings you have and pick a new one. And, fingers crossed, it's the RIGHT one. ;)

Yes, I'm blessed but it's not always without stress.

Today and everyday I am grateful for my family, my friends, my health, my education thus far, the fact the my 5 senses work, the fact I can do most things I want to because my family is financially able, the list goes on. Truly, it would seem that I have no right to complain as I better off than a good 90+% of the world's population and I agree. Fully.

BUT!
Irrespective of who you are, what your position in life or situation is, there always comes a time when you are stressed out about one thing or the other that is not going right. And if you have friends who would listen, you are most likely going to talk about it with them and even complain a little (if not a lot).
Back in high school, I would often talk about problems I was having with a close friend of mine and every single time, I would get back something that I would interpret as "you are really selfish for complaining when so many people do not have half of what you do." I was always hurt by this and eventually stopped talking about what was going on with me, even when I was asked. From then on everything was always "going well."
Since then I have grown up (a little more) and better understand what was being said, or rather I've chosen to interpret it in a different way: "Look on the brighter side, at your privileged position and smile." There are still so many things that I can complain about right now, but the challenge is there everyday to look on the brighter side. I’d admit that sometimes (often) I fail to do this and sink into a mellow dramatic depression and listen to sorrowful tunes. But this just turns the world black and I’m end up in an even worse off place than I started.
But on those days where I manage to look on the bright side (which are slowly increasing), and manage to take that extra step to improve my situation, solve my problem or simply forget about things I cannot for the time being change, I am a happier person. I find that I like myself better that way too. And even if I am stuck in my room with nothing to do, I turn up the music, dance about in my PJ’s and sing into that deodorant bottle like no one is watching (and thankfully no one is).
Yes, I am blessed but I still have those times when I sink and it’s really hard to come back up. Even so, I have found my ways and it’s getting easier to look on the bright side.

Here are some:
• Take a nice long warm shower
• Play fun music really loud
• Find friends and talk about nothing
• Watch a comedy
• Write
• Take a long walk
• Pray

Make your own list and try them out when you are sinking. It helps. :)