Random if anything ever was…

doom doom dooom dom

doom doom dooom dom

I'm not loving yooouuu way I wanted tooo.

What I had to do, had to run from yoooou.

Mr. Comp Sci. you are the freaking bane of my existence right now. I mean I knew that our relationship was not the best. We had a love hate kinda thing going on but we still stuck it through. Through the good times and all the bad ones. All the promises you made! UGH!

Ok to be fair you haven't bailed on the promises, I just haven't gotten there yet but must you beat me all the way down after any step? I mean C'MON!!!! How much can a person take? Sheesh.

WORLD CUP 2010!!!!

GHANA!!!!! THAT IS ALL!!! kthxbye.

Pet peeve? Nah… this infuriates me.

You know the kind. You know? fair-weather friends?

The kind when everything is peaches and cream so is the friendship. The fun and the laughter surrounds you constantly like the the fragrance from a Febreeze plug-in? (OMDz, fantastic) and all that?

Now, as soon as something is not right; you are distracted, busy, upset, sick, worried, the list goes on and you cannot give them the full attention and joyous feeling you have until then, then anything goes up in smoke and flames. They get ticked off or upset, claiming you are sucking up the life/energy/whatever synonym is hot that day and then leave…

I'm like …seriously? Do forgive me for having a life which may sometimes distract me from my God-given task of making you happy… Tsew.

First Impressions

I just realised that a lot tends to ride on the first impression that you have of a person that you meet. Or rather I should say we (I) tend to make a number of decisions about a person based on this first encounter, including how we forever interact with them.

While we always hear a person never gets a second chance to make a first impression, did you ever think of how your …state of mind (?) affects that impression that person makes? A state of mind they obviously have absolutely no control over.

Here is what I mean:

Say you are in the office and you just found out some unfortunate news that has left you in quite the sour mood with the thickest, greyest cloud you've ever seen over your head, your boss at that point walks in to introduce you to a very chirpy, excited, young blonde intern in a colourful suit rather than one of a traditional colour.

What first impression do you have of her at that point?

My guess is that you might be irritated with her and think she's too bubbly and then maybe tend to avoid her. If you were in a more bubbly mood yourself you just might click and it would be start of a fantastic relationship. In either situation, the blonde didn't change. Your state of mind did. What I'm trying to say basically is that I currently think a first impression of one person is a two way thing. (Of course when two people first meet each is getting a first impression of the other but that's not what I'm talking about.)

Speaking from my own experience (I was just telling someone this yesterday) a few of the guy friends I have were guys who were trying to pick me up. Usually I would blow them of, take their numbers (instead of giving mine) and never call or just simply ignore them. BUT for those I actually called I was more than likely to have been in a fantastic mood when they approached.

So much so that one time I even took a walk with one I'd known for 15 mins. (Yes, I think back to that and wonder "What the hell were you thinking Kui?!!!!" But thank God he was chill. whew.)

But yes my point is, you can't always be in the best of moods but the next time you know you are about to meet someone try to be in a receptive mood or not even Denzel Washington could make a good first impression.

And don't you just hate it when you have a bad first impression and then avoid the person and then are sorta force back with them and realise you've missed out on having this person in your life?? Think about it.

TGIF!! :D

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"Boredom kills…" I can see the truth in that.

Could it truly be that I am refusing to see what it is that right under my nose?

Does dust and do scales cloud my eyes,

And reduce everything around me to a disguise?

So much so that I am unable to see

All the opportunities that lay before me?

The summer has begun and by the eternal string of scratches on the prison walls of my mind, it has already gone on for far to long. The days drag on as the trees slowly grow endless shadows behind them, just as my feet, too, drag on as my spirit wears downs and leaves its pieces behind me. The warm summer nights and even warmer summer days refuse to bend to offer even the smallest of condolences by way of a break of the monotonous drone that is my day. It does not bother to offer a cool day, grayed by the rain, as a simple means by which to engage my brain.

Curse the morning sun that drags me into one more day of reaping the nothing that I sowed… The day wears on.

Lord forbid I eventually think pulling out my hair might be somewhat engaging…

Dear Mama…

It’s been a long time that we’ve been together
And not too long ago it seemed like forever
Now I’m so far away and its time that you know
I wish that time would rewind and go little more slow
I miss those days when I was shorter than you
When boys, bills and books were not an issue
Those days I was shown “sense” when I tried to stray
And you’d say “I love you baby so this is the right way”
And now the time has come for me to be
The best that I can on my own you see.
Now I have to be the director of my own show
But I’m so proud I have you to show me the way to go
You were my first and best birthday gift ever
God must really love me to make you my mother
And as He chose you to give me life
I pray He uses me to get you through strife
You are always in my heart and metaphorically by my side
I love you to death mummy and that I could never hide

HAPPY MOTHER’S DAY!!!!! ☺

KuiDee
05/09/09 7:30pm

Rededicated: 05/09/10

Pensieve entry (05/02/10)

I feel pain. Why? I’m not really sure but I know it must be pain that is causing these tears to leave a trail on my cheek and dampen my sweatshirt sleeves.

I really can’t explain to you why I feel this way though since nothing bad at happened. With enough reading and following “motivational” tweeters and basic common sense you know that its not the event but the way you feel about the event that dictates your mood.

Common sense would then logically tell you to change the way you think but as always that is more easily said than done. Because there is more to the mind, there is the heart. (No I’m not talking about love and all the schmoozy crap).

Sometimes some things just hurt you on the inside way too much to simply change your mind on how you feel about it. And its not even the big things. Just the little ones.
Like consideration. Simple uncomplicated consideration.