I thought I'd share.

Bend reality

Is there something outside of you that's troubling you? The distress you're feeling is not from the thing itself.
The distress you experience is from what you think of it and the way you feel about it. You can change that in an instant.
You can change what you fear into what you eagerly anticipate. You can change a burdensome problem into a magnificent opportunity.
The vast majority of all that happens in this enormous universe is out of your control. And yet with every bit of it, you can control what it means to you.
Do you fully realize how much power that gives you? Do you understand the unlimited nature of what you can do with whatever you have?
Just by the way you choose to accept and to make use of reality, you can bend that reality to empower your own unique purpose. See what is, accept what is, and use it to achieve your finest dreams.
-- Ralph Marston

Read more: http://greatday.com/motivate/100226.html#ixzz0grRmCG8u

So many questions…

What is it that I can do that would lead me to a place where I can find you?
What is it that I can say that would help me see and follow your way?
What is it that I should believe in to see the truths that are and have been?
What is it that I should feel to know that with you my wounds would heal?

When would I be able to say, "Its you, now, forever, any day?"
When would I believe without a doubt that you fill my heart inside and out?
When would I burst out in song because I finally know you after so long?
When would I truly surrender and acknowledge you only as my soul defender?

Which of these paths should I take and will you tell me when its a mistake?
Where may I seek and find your face, and find comfort in your embrace?
Who do I say that you are when I can hardly see you from so far?
Why do I feel so cold and alone as though I built my home in the arctic zone?

Wanderings…

CAN YOU IMAGINE COMING HOME TO THIS EVERY NIGHT?? AND TO A TALL GORGEOUS GLASS OF HOT CHOCOLATE FOR A HUSBAND??? "Well cause you can't have no hag living in that house…" hehe, not my words, taken out of context but still.
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Now why oh why would you not want to wake up in the morning, every morning to this?? Even a rainy morning would be sexy… really really. :)
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Now those already long showers are about to get ssssoooooo much longer… mmmm
(ooo I lost the link for this one! Sorry!)

Do you ever sit and wonder…

Where you life is going? What you are meant to be doing? Why everyone seems to be getting ahead? Why homework is so bloody hard? Why nothing seems to be going right? …Where God is?

So I have a question for you… religious, spiritual, getting there, or not any more: What was your journey? What routes did you take? Proverbs and John? Church every Sunday? Everyday? Submerging yourself in the bible? What was it? For how long did you keep it up (for those who may have given up)? How did you change? What did you change?

How do you run on faith the size of a mustard seed? How did you manage to not doubt the capability of faith that size and didn't just give up (for those who are fulfilled … well more or less)?

It's meant to be easy… or rather not as difficult as quantum physics at least, but really then how… I'm not even sure what question I'm asking any more.

Jeremiah 29: 13 / Deut 4:29
How exactly would you define: "with all your heart"?
Would it be when you do nothing but turn to God? How would you learn to that after not doing it for …forever? So big a turning point. And when you try and fail and you seem to not be moving forward how you are able to keep searching with all your heart?

Yes, yes, faith, belief, prayer… I've heard. But really how do you keep the doubt from crawling back into your heart and cleaning out not only the cobwebs but the light you are trying to get to shine in there?
How do you handle people who seem to shut you out because you do not seem to on their level or do to seem to them to be trying to get there? I mean sure, be with your kind and those who understand you and do not be dragged down whatever yackedy schmack. But really. How do you get to a certain place when the examples you see are not the places you want to be or the others are places you cant seem to reach?

Ok, so these are just thoughts I'm pondering that are going over and over in my head and is all coming straight from there and therefore I doubt its making much sense what I am asking but if you understand and have an answer please do share.

I hope you are having a fantastic weekend though.
You should check out the video in my previous post. It should make you at least smile.

KuiDee.
P.S. So I meant I have QUESTIONS for you… plural as you may have realised… :) xx

Baby are you down down down down down?!!!

Yes, this IS our very own President Brian Rosenberg. :D
Best Part: 3:18 - 3:33 in my opinion. :D



LOVE IT

The Eye of the Storm

...Moving on from that last post (I just decided I'd ignore it. I have too many things I need to spend my time on).

It was 2:40am Monday February 8th 2010. I was working on Algorithms homework (mad ass thing with a zillions thinking intensive questions and Lord knows I started on Saturday.) I'm thinking "I burnt out, I should catch some sleep and then continue." Roommates being asleep 3 hrs. I've been working by lamp, I turn this off, climb into bed.

As soon as my head hits the pillow and my eyes close my mind starts to spin:

• Algorithms: "Open Doors" order of growth...Sieve of Eratosthenes... that should be it...wait...what?
• That article for Mood is 12 pages long..
• Oh no! I didn't do the reflection for Col. Intelligence.
• Argh!! I have to read those 10 pages for 3D and then 9Highland AND THEN write that reflection paper
• I have to get those comm. serv. apps in.
  
• Shoot. Meeting with Andrew tonight.
  
• iSA write ups, review, template designs. stress.. When did he want them again?
  
• I have to get those recommendations in. Wait... when was that deadline??? OH [insert colourful phrase of choice here]!!!!!!
• Oooohhhh, is it even worth bothering about it with this my GPA?
• ....sigh. Phone bill is due.
• It doesn't end there.
  

Needless to say, I spent the next hour on the phone with my mother who tried to calm me down enough so she could at least hear what was wrong.
This was my first breakdown of sorts...
Sunday is around the corner. I have another date with Algorithms homework... but I'm in a conference all weekend. I started it Wednesday.
Lord, I'm calling on you. Nothing is impossible...

She does nothing for me.

From one of the blogs I follow. I'm patiently (impatiently?) waiting my turn to write my own…
:D
(Think about how we do NOTHING for Him. Yet His entire purpose is surrounded about us… *…Mind Blown…*)

FOOL FOR LOVE: She does nothing for me.

I’d say about 90% of the time, she does nothing. Literally. She simply lies there. She can’t tell me a joke or run an errand. She doesn’t ask me how I’m feeling or give me birthday presents. She can’t even roll over or lift her head.

But I love her.

She’s my daughter.

From the moment she shattered my 6-year-old understanding of what my family was and broke into my world, I was taken by her, smitten with an unconditional love. Pink and wiggly with eyes that could barely open, I knew that I would do anything for her. Forever. Even now, when she can do nothing for me.

Photo Credit – Getty Images: Studio Paggy

So can’t talk or walk, clean up after herself, or help with dinner. She never changes her own clothes or gives herself a bath. She doesn’t care to let me sleep more than three hours at once or spend my free time on personal hobbies.

And yet I’m not angry because I love her.

She’s my daughter.

The best writers – especially those with a spiritual touch – have tried for ages to capture the definition of unconditional love. The limits of language only leave us with similes and metaphors for what such a love could be like. Omnipotent gods are said to love frail humanity with such a love, but being the object of unconditional love doesn’t quite make its reality clear in your mind. Maybe that’s the point. Because you can offer no reciprocal gift, you don’t quite realize that a transaction is even taking place.

Omnipotent gods don’t spit up on you when you just changed clothes or cry when they’re hungry in the middle of the night.

I held her in my arms and looked at her 8-hour-old face and knew that I loved her with a unique and unconditional love. She could do nothing for me. There was no material benefit she provided in my life, and still, I loved her.

My love for my wife – while unconditional now – was once predicated on attraction and compatibility. While dating, interests and conversations had to be aligned or appreciated before a mysterious, irrational, overwhelming love could swoop in and swaddle us. And now, nearly eight years after falling in love with her, we’ve created not just a baby who will look like us, but we’ve created a category of love that stands beyond us and consumes us, taking us to a point where we love like we’ve never loved before.

All You Need Blogger: Sam Davidson via Ophelia's Webb

Heart over Mind… Really?

So I was reading through the blogs of one of the ppl I follow and there was something he had to say:

The only way to live the life you see in your dreams is to let your Heart be the Master of your Mind. This is scary because the Heart yearns for no reason, the Heart is sensitive and has the capacity of feel such great bliss and such intense pain. But that is now our calling, we MUST go through it - you MUST let go of all the reasons you can't, all the things that you think will hurt and simply embrace life as real, as primal and as intense as it is when you let yourself feel.

This is what is required of you to step into the magical land of dreams, success and most importantly happiness. Don't deny your Heart, don't turn away from the unknown, step courageously into your Fear, let yourself feel and have the strength to bare it all. This is living, this is being human - this is your calling.

Love,

Mastin

I'm sitting here thinking, do you REALLY know just how scary it is to let your heart take over your mind. I mean he said it himself "this is … because the Heart yearns for no reason, the Heart is sensitive and has the capacity of feel such great bliss and such intense pain."
When I think about what my heart yearns for at this point, the thought of giving it free reign is T.E.R.R.I.F.Y.I.N.G.
But then there is this other side to it too… I can't really tell anymore if following Kipp's advice really would be the best thing to do… There are so many things to consider. And the pain. Gosh…