Help me!

I need some advice.

My computer has been acting up for a while now and by a while I mean since like may. It shuts down randomly, batt life is like 10 mins when not plugged in 20 if i'm lucky, 4 if not, things are un-click-able, slow as 8am econ class.
It hasn't been much of a big deal since school was out and I wasn't doing big things and what not.
I mean its still working. I'm writing this on it now. But!
Senior year is starting meaning a lot of writing/programming/procrastination I'd call a break.
And I can't have my computer being menopausal on me.
So what I did is I bought a new computer… I haven't opened it up yet… cus I'm still playing with the idea… (Now I can't click on the finder. tsew.)

Pros:
New computer.
Not going to wig out on me
I can work on my senior things and what not
I have a protection plan on the new one.

Cons:
I have to go rob a bank now.
I can't sell this old computer for scrap (cus my cuzn stuck on a Hannah Montana sticker on it… -__-)
I was stupid enough not to the get the protection plan before and to fix it would be …robbing another bank.

Help! What should I do?

xx
KD

So, who's your man?

Me: No one. I don't have a man.
Taxi Driver: C'mon. I ain't yo daddy. You ain't gotta lie me.
Me: Don't worry, I know, I wouldn't lie to him about that either.
TD: Girl, please, I'm looking at you. You too fine to be single.
*Pause* (You really should be looking at the road)
Me: Thank you, but I really am.

Ok, I can take a compliment (and there is someone out there who will shake his head when he reads this), and I'm flattered that he'd think that way. But, here is my issue.

Is the way I look to be the defining characteristic that decides whether I'm single or not?
No, I'm not naive enough to still think that looks don't count. Of course the good looking ones are more likely to get more attention. I'm mean, I'm just as attracted to the tall, dark, cute smile, arms for daaayyys kinda guy as the next person and I'd notice him sooner than the awkward, jeans sagging guy who still claims he's got pretty boy swag…like… really?

What about me and my say? I'll take it, I'm not an eye-sore BUT I also have a say in who becomes my boyfriend. I'd much rather be joyful, even bored in my single than miserable and in agony in a double. The guy made a boyfriend sound like a must-have accessory any good looking girl should have…
I mean sure, but there is a lot more that should go into the pairing up process.

Also, you can't call me a liar after 5 mins, me and you no dey so… -___-

Question:

I have a simple question hence a short post.
Please do not interpret this to be me looking down my straight nose through half moon glasses at those of you who do this. I'm just trying to understand.

So: ho, bitch, bintch, hefa, etc are words that I often hear one female call another. And in an affectionate way too. This where I kinda do a double take after I think about it. (If I don't bother to think about it, it doesn't register.) These terms are alright to use provided those using it are comfortable doing so with each other. Until a guy uses it on you as well… Liken this to the use of "nigger." It's ok for a black person to use this but as soon as it comes from a person with less melanin it's a problem.

WHY?
If you are using these terms on yourselves why is it an issue when others use it?
Just because connotations and mutual understanding are different?

Please help/explain. If you get it that is.
Graçias

xx
KD

Hmmm… I'm in a mushy mood…

BUT I LIKE EET!! :D

Anyways, I stumbled upon this and thought I'd share my favourite ones!
Source: Love-ly murals (You can't get me Mr. Kitching! (Is that his name saf…))

:DDD

(Ok, this one is such a line!)

(Pile of mush all on the floor… *gush*) 

(Accounting major maybe?)

I'm in such a good mood! :D Have the best day y'all.

xx
KD.

What is love?!

"Baby don't hurt me… don't hurt me… no more…"

Ok that was a line from a song. I hope you were not actually looking for a legit answer to this big fat confusion inducing question. But since I have your attention… ]:D

My definition of love so far is… and I'm not talking about the romantic which is depicted in movies to make you feel weightless, light-headed and young and foolish. No, that's not my piece of cake. When I take a bite I'll let you know.

But for now, my definition is something like this:

You know those people who have the ability to DRIVE YOU UP THE BLOODY WALL? Like its not even a big thing ooo chale. Something small. But they do it and up the wall you go. They make you angry and upset and confused and tired and then you give up and you are not talking to them for a while and you blame them for all the things that are going wrong in your day…
And then the very next day you can't live without them. Like joke, you call them up to make sure they are alive, make sure they still know how to laugh and to confirm that you can still do that for them.
You'd offer what you can to make the day feel a little better and in the event you can't really do anything you feel so utterly hopeless that… ……I don't even have the words to explain the feeling.
Should any random fool dare attack them in anyway the Hulk in you that you never knew about is born. Like "Who do you think you are to [insert any verb under the sun here] my [fill with loved one]?"

So if they can drive u up the wall and still make you defend them will all you've got, you love 'em! :D
S/O to mi familia!!!!

xx
KD.

School Year Woes

Textbook shopping will leave the bank account dry

Amazon, Abebooks, it don't matter what I try

Textbook shopping will make a grown girl cry

And all they ever do is impersonate a tsetse-fly.

…Tsew. 

They spoke to me…

Lately, there are so many lines in so many songs that speak to me or I fall in love with or I wish I could identify with. But rather than put up a million different songs, here are the few essential lines per song. :D Enjoy.

Think about it
You and me together,
Loving each other
Aiming at forever
Think about it

NeYo - Future in You

**Sultry melodies pour out of the saxophone, inducing images of warm nights, four arms, four legs, twenty fingers, two torsos; the separating skin, air, time and space between them merely theoretical… … ahem** [There are no words, simply imagination in this song]

Kenny G & George Benson - Summertime

If we believe, we can achieve anything including the impossible

This I know so lets lift up our heads and raise the flag

And scream like you want to win now let the games begin!

R. Kelly - Sign of a Victory

I wish I could lose all of my blues

I wish I could stop putting my blues on you

I wish I could love like nobody loves

I wish that my goods out way my bads enough

Robin Thicke - Complicated

I know now I was naïve

Never knew where this would lead

And I'm not trying to take away

From the good man that he is

Alicia Keys - Goodbye

Head rush from a touch my emotions erupt
Realise that I'm stuck caught inside of [his] seduction
Losing my mind each and every time [he's] around


Lloyd - Valentine

Oh lonely girl don't you loose your dreams in someone else's cries
Lonely girl don't you see your life in someone else's eyes
Lonely world don't you find your faith in someone else's lies
Lone world don't you live your life through someone else's eyes

Robin Thicke - Lonely World

I'm more than just an option…
Refuse to be forgotten…
I took a chance with my heart
And I feel it taking over…

Drake - Find Your Love

So tonight, I'm gonna find a way to make it without you

Alicia Keys - Sleeping with a Broken Heart

Tell me what do you see
When you looking at me…
On a mission to be
What I'm destined to be…
I'm a soldier, a rider, a ghetto survivor
And all the above…
…
Take a look and you can tell
That I'm destined for greatness

Maino - All the Above

I open my eyes and realize that nothing's quite that bad
I've got a different approach to dealing with emotion
eeping control of my boat, while drifting on this ocean
Keeping my head in the sky, keeping tears out of my eyes.
Unless happiness be the reason that I decide to cry,
And life's too short to dwell on all that's wrong.
Stand up now, stand up now and I promise not before long
You'll be feeling better today.

NeYo - Better Today (Honestly, the whole song just resonates… sometimes.)

Update: (10/19/10)
Life's a prison when you are in love alone

Usher - Can You Help Me?


So some of the songs were really sad… I'm sorry!! I still loved them though.

Have the best day all.

xxx
KD

Lonely World - Robin Thicke

Just a verse…

Beautiful mom can you smile?
Can you glow, can you sing me my favorite song?
Got fever, warm clothes are clean, kids are gone
What to do she's a sleeping sun.
She says birds fly out her window
She watches jealously
She says she's too old for new things
But mama you got wings

…Mama you got strong, beautiful …beautiful wings.

Inception!!

I don't think this contains spoilers but you might…

Soooo Inception. I finally went to go see that movie with my sister last night… Fantastic!!
Really. Fantastic. I have to say my favourite bit was in the 2nd dream level were there was 4 walled/0 gravity combat. Tooooooo jeh.
Ah! It was just a hot movie.
Some advice though. Don't listen to all the talk about how it's "mind-boggling" and confusing and has more kinks than an African woman's hair (the un-permed supremely curly kind). It would make you try to pay too much attention to what is going on and you'd forget to enjoy it. Luckily for me I gave that up after like 5 mins. You'd find it's actually quite easy to follow.

Now! I have questions not answered by the movie.
1. Do the people not breathe while in Limbo? I mean they left the men under water!!
2. Don't things that supply oxygen have to be attached to something? I mean. I'm being picky here but… it's a question.
3. What if a totem is created in a dream state. Could it fool you into believing that that dream state is actually the true reality?
4. How is it that it was ok for Cobb to take his wife's totem. Is that allowed???? lol.
5. What happens when you die in limbo? Can you die in limbo? I mean… old enough people must die eventually right?

All in all I loved the movie. For sometime yesterday though I forgot what "inception" meant. lol. (it means the beginning of something btw).

What I took away from the movie is that an idea, well placed, can be viral and difficult to displace if at all. I don't know about this placement, but here's my idea: www.istandabove.org. Check us out, do something for the up coming iSA day and come stand with us. ;)

Have a fantastic week y'all. :D

xxx
KD.